Today was the anniversary of my son’s transition. I worked all day today, and even though I didn’t feel up to it, kept up my usual performance. My boss’s father passed the same day as my son, so she wanted me to celebrate with her by going around to pass out blankets to the homeless. I suggested we hit the same spots my grandmother, recently diseased, use to hit. So we circled downtown Long Beach and only got off a couple dozen, but it felt rewarding and healing as she said it would. I’m preparing to go back out to AZ tonight or early morning, and though I didn’t feel like doing so earlier, I know I can make a tremendous difference by offering my experience and energy to the new store project. I’ve gotta keep my head, because as soon as I let it drop from the pain and sadness, I’m needed again. I’d hate to be foolish and say, ” God has a plan for me” but I know I must re-organize and plan my future based on what is… knowing the most high Mother/Father God Spirit has my back, because of all the love I’ve invested in life. Miss you boy… Daddy is still strong for you…
as i roll up this medical blunt, I’m thankful for the time I’ve spent shying away from sessions. I’m thankful to myself for restraint with something that I strongly feel is a good thing, especially compared to all the ill things I harm my body with. This is usually the time of year where people start to reflect and decide what their resolutions will be. As i spark the end with the hole, realizing my rolling skills have depleted in a matter of days, I give thanks for the earth energy I’m inhaling. Irie after 4 drags, I’m straight. Love
Rest in the Essence… Grandma Brown… Less than a month away from my sons passing date, my grandmother has transitioned to the next stage in life… My feelings aren’t present, I’ve always been a late bloomer, who would’ve thought this would apply to my emotions and grieving process…
It took me a whole year to start feeling anything about my son passing… I’ve heard theres different stages in grieving, and they dont necessarily happen in any order… Since I’ve had to be strong for family and friends to hold it together, I’ve bottled up these emotions avoiding the appearance of weakness… Now I feel weaker than ever, and everything is hitting me at once.. I like to believe we return to the source of light from which we came, then become more at one with all around us, when we leave this body… But my son? That little boy validated me as a man, and showed me how much of a man I wasn’t yet… He gave me a chance to love with no question, in a way that I feel I will never be able to love again… It may happen, but not the same way… I may have more children, in fact I must have more children, but they’ll have their own place in my heart… It would’ve been easier if he was a miscarriage or an old man but he was the light of the world at 5 years, turning his toddler goofiness to kindergartener wit and intelligence… ”Why” is a question I can’t ask, or it opens the door to the pain of ignorance… they say ignorance is bliss, but I’m past this point… How about a bath? since a brotha stopped smoking and drinking to ease the pain, I’m gonna meditate in the water….
If you don’t already know… Art makes the world go round… In a society run by squares, art makes the world go round… When thinking inside of the box is “slavery” and “safe”, art makes the world go round… When change is necessary, the artists blueprint with compassion and imagination.. Every corrupt government has a common enemy.. ARTISTS.. We cause the people to think for themselves, freely and critically. In a situation where the government has control over artists of media, they have the ability to control the thoughts and emotions of the masses… Self educated and highly spiritual artists are more influential than any politrickster. Heres a few examples of my favorite revolutionary art, via BLACK PANTHER – Emory Douglas…
I had a long chat with a good friend of mine, and at certain points in the conversation, i felt more aware of the low level of love i had for myself. In an attempt to heal and shed dead weight, I have cancelled all my (decade-strong) social network accounts. I’m turning this blog into my status updater and diary… I’m cutting off my vices… and focusing inward… I already do allot of computer work, so i wont miss being in front of a screen.. and even if i miss interaction with people.. i’m more turned off by upholding my strength, in the face of ”the scene.” So re-direct your people to this site as my social link… and toward WARPNT.com for my art portfolio… PikloBeats are coming soon… It’s time to re-invent….Love
AFTER THE RISE OF DIGITAL DOWNLOADS AND THE FALL OF THE TOWER/WHEREHOUSE/SAMGOODY’S
ENTER STAGE LEFT, BEATSWAPMEET RECORD SHOW MADE IT COOL TO HAVE TANGIBLE DUSTY RARE MUSIC TECHNOLOGY..
NOW LIKE 5 NEW RECORD STORES HAVE OPENED IN THE LAST YEAR…
Here’s one that looks interesting…
June is more than a friend, she’s family…
I met her through the mother of my son, who shares w/ June, a love for crafts and cooking.
She’s proven to be one of the most active and creative individuals in LA.. ask around..
I was honored when she asked me to design a logo for her HIPHOP CATERING venture called ‘RAPPER’s DELIGHT’.
http://abuggslife.wordpress.com/category/rappers-delight/
She’s a beast on the graphic design tip. Junebugg did the 2009 http://www.beatswapmeet.com flyers and a gazillion other projects..
She has been known to rock a party behind the turntables for as long as i’ve known her, and spins vinyl and Serato.
I love her snaps though.. She loves to travel and document all the fly shit..
Check out her food shots…
She makes SPAM look like a gourmet salmon cake.. dam
You call that camping??? Dam she don’t know how to ruff it!! lol
And washing it down with some bomb ass Chicha, Peru..
CHECK OUT HER BLOG FOR ALOT MORE GOOD FOOD, GOOD MUSIC, AND GOOD TIMES!!
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I haven’t had the pleasure of meeting the lovely young black woman on the other side of this camera and these snaps but I must say:
You have to be an artist to capture a moment, that otherwise would have been overlooked and or forgotten, and scribe it into the memory of all who come across it.
What a job to have, traveling the world capturing beauty, that could be ugly to the average passer-by… but to a lover of all that is all? .. Snap!! another piece of this big ol’ little world to examine / imagine / and experience..
Its been a full month since I’ve blogged, Been Updating My Portfolio Blog @ http://warpnt.com,but I NOW have a “blogworthy” topic.
NNENNA( Nen-uh ) STELLA..
ThanxVizionheiry http://yesterdayspoem.blogspot.com/
Who sent me her link on TWITTER! lol
Gotta document this social network because it continues to change my life.
I look forward to meeting ya’ll..
If you wanna see more beautiful snaps
Creative Picket Signs are Common at Protest..
This one caught my eye caught my eye..
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